Sleepless night.
Someone once asked me, what does it take to be one’s own boss. My answer to him was: to be able to survive the thought of not getting the paycheck anymore.
Sounds like easy? Think again! How it’s like when there is no more paycheck waiting for you at the end of the month, you are wondering if you will have enough money to pay the rent (or the mortgage), the bills, the nice dinner you used to enjoy every other week, the gift you have promised to buy for you love one(s), and so on.
Those who still live with their parents may not find it a big deal, but for me who am totally on my own, let me tell you one thing: it scares the shit out of me, not just at times, but all of the times!
The only thing that comforts me, is when I remembered what that Ssgt Struecker said in Black Hawk Down: “The difference between being a coward and hero is not whether you’re scared, it’s what you do while you’re scared.”
So what do I do when I’m scared? I’ll first pray, reminding myself that God is with me. Then I’ll go out and make things happen!
And as a matter of fact, I have survived the thought of not getting paycheck. I mean, I’m already out here, see?
